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No news… is still no news

We’re still in a holding pattern just waiting for E to make her grand debut.

As the days tick by, it looks like we’ll be headed more and more for the induction on the 9th. I’m not really worried or concerned about what lies ahead. I’m actually feeling pretty calm.

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this previously, but long before we started TTC (and had any idea about IF), I had a lot of apprehensions about the whole ‘getting pregnant’ thing. I just sort of had this sense that we were jumping into the deep end of the pool without knowing how to swim or having any of those little inflatable ‘floaties’ on our arms.

I pretty much despaired over the entire process.

After a while, I came to hate TTC naturally when month after month yielded no results. Good grief, I felt like the prize stallion at the Irish National Stud Farm. When we finally went to the reproductive medicine clinic, I worried about the implications of finding out something was ‘wrong’ with one of us or (possibly worse) finding ‘nothing wrong’ as a case of unexplained infertility.

I think I only came into my own when then the shit hit the proverbial fan and we had a clear diagnosis. Finally! I had something we could do something about. Blocked tubes, who knew?

From that point forward, I’ve become increasingly sanguine about the whole thing. My sense of foreboding has entirely cleared. I’m no longer worried.

Was I somehow psychic and sensed the infertility problems?

Perhaps, I’ve had the first known case of ‘mantuition’ (male intuition)?

I don’t know. I just know that I’m feeling quite contented waiting to meet our daughter.

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2 Responses to “No news… is still no news”

  1. Myndion Feb 6th 2010 at 4:00 pm

    You’ve had time to get used to the idea, and the journey is so hard, that E seems so much more the prize, doesn’t she? So much has been put into getting to this point…what’s to worry about now? Surely you’ve been through the worst of it. :)

    Just looked at your widget…3 days. Holy cannoli! Every day I swing by and wonder if it’s in process or just happened…dying to hear the good news and see some pictures of the beautiful and wonderful Miss E!

  2. Another Juliaon Feb 6th 2010 at 5:37 pm

    I can’t wait for your little E to debut! It will blow your mind how much you can love another person…I love my husband so, so much….but my sons are in an entirely different league.

    As for ‘mantuition’..I just snorted tea all over my keyboard! Too funny.

    Happy countdown–almost there, Daddy! :)

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